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hikouchan
21 November 2009 @ 12:26 pm
So....... Hikou was denied unemployment and owes the state exorbitant amounts of money now, on top of not being able to afford tuition for next semester and her mother threatening to kick her jobless ass out. Not so fun.

Haven't written anything lately. Jill and I keep talking about doing a zombie fic, but idk how that's gonna work out. Zombies are serious fucking business. idk if I can do a light fic.

Matt sold the company. I'm not sure how that's going to affect my lawsuit. I guess we're filing something with the EEOC. I've gotta actually print out my paperwork and mail the signed copies back to the lawyer so he can take care of it. He wants me to reappeal for unemployment, but I'm not sure what to say.

MISS MY TURKS. THEY SHOULD BE EMAILING ME.
 
 
hikouchan
12 November 2009 @ 09:25 am
So, turns out Hikou does in fact have a new boyfriend.
 
 
hikouchan
15 October 2009 @ 03:50 pm

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hikouchan
14 October 2009 @ 08:03 pm
Hikou is currently seeking someone to look over a very short zombie-original she wrote.
 
 
hikouchan
10 October 2009 @ 05:05 pm
I'm a little bit tired of boys whining about not getting laid.
 
 
hikouchan
28 September 2009 @ 10:04 am
Do any of you use associatedcontent?
 
 
hikouchan
27 September 2009 @ 06:48 pm
I spent all day doing nothing, I can't go to the movies tomorrow because everyone wants to go when I have class, and I can't even find a decent RP to distract myself with.

I mildly hate my life.
 
 
hikouchan
14 September 2009 @ 08:39 am
Had the worst time ever at her family business yesterday. My mom said she was going to go and then bailed so I got all the OMG WHY DOES YOUR MOM HATE US questions, on top of half of the family not recognizing me at all. Scratch that. All but two not recognizing me. My godmother came in and didn't know who I was and then started asking me pushy questions about my father until I was almost in tears.

I was so upset I actually guilted Pat into calling me when he was supposed to be sleeping. I'm still undecided about him.

I think I might be going down to PA to see him and Jill this December (finances permitting), but I'm not sure. He keeps asking me about it and I don't know if he's kidding or not. Either way, it'd be awesome to hang with Jill for a few days. I haven't really talked to her about it yet, though, because I don't want to bring it up until I'm sure I can go, and I won't know that until I start getting my unemployment checks, and I gotta look at the school calendar, and just a lot of shit.

Class is going okay. Other than the fact both the ones I signed up for are four hours long a piece. Christ. Drives me absolutely crazy. I think I'll opt for split-classes next semester. I'm also way ahead in Japanese because I set myself back a year than I was approved for because I thought I needed some review, but it gets to the point where I just start tuning out in class like I did in high school and writing bad fanfiction in the margins of my workbook.

Which is not good.

I think German'll be the same way because I've already had a year of it and I started first year, but what can you do. It's already paid for.

I have my first German class tonight, btw. Labor Day fucked up all the school schedules. I'm kind of nervous.

Moved back into my mom's house, still unpacking. My new room's so tiny I can't fit my dresser in it because she wouldn't give me my old bedroom back, so now I have to throw out like half of my clothes so they can all fit in the tiny closet because there's no other place for them. Not to mention all my other shit. IDK what I'm gonna do.

Then she keeps trying to pile all the boxes in my room (which take up half the living room) when my room's only about 6x6. IDK how she thinks I'm gonna unpack everything if I can't even get in the room, and it doesn't help that I have to keep leaving the house for classes, or that family party thing because when I come back she's moved all my shit again and I have to start all over.

Ugh.

In short, I hate my life.
 
 
hikouchan
11 September 2009 @ 06:02 pm
Hikou has a lawyer in her possession.
 
 
hikouchan
11 September 2009 @ 05:44 pm


Title: Timeline
CAT: FFVII
Warnings: Self insert, language, violence
Story Link: Unsure if I'll post it.

Summary: I smile terribly at my realization, my acidic lips open and my teeth bare like fangs. I snarl like the dog I am with the grace of something pretty I've been taught to be. I look very much the sly fox; I am very much the agitated bear. And this creature that I am, that I have become, that I might or might not have been, but I have certainly returned as has been gifted once more, tragically, upon this poor, unsuspecting world. 

[Self-Insert, Turk-tastic]
Notes: Hikou misses playing with the other Turks and if the only way to amend this is to pull a Sephiroth, so be it. Not sure if I'll include this in the Death Cycle saga, although that is the storyline in which it takes place, just because it's so unbearably cheesy, unrealistic, and out of place.


Persephone

Eternity is simply a sick joke.

It's something awful we've done to ourselves, a terrible, too-high hope we've raised the bar on so far no god could ever have hoped to jump it, but I can't help in dealing the Heavens a helping of blame in a selfish sort of way that has always been partial to my name.

There is not a thread of fear left in me because although the blackness before me may seem to stretch to the farthest reaches of time and space, out into infinity and perhaps further still, I am cursed with the terrible knowedge that this, too, must end.

No, I am untouched by fear as darkness fades to unbearable light. There is no apprehension at the restriction of my limbs, no horror at the tubes of plastic taped into my face, no worry at the huming of machinery behind me, not a care in all the world for the white-coated ghosts that float past me.

And every natural pretext for adreneline, every self-preserving instinct I've ever had has been replaced with a maddening sorrow, hollow in no way. My anguish is so tangible it cannot be contained within my body. It bubbles out past the crack of my taped lips, reverberates horribly against the aluminum walls of this familiar looking hell.

The ghosts stop dead in their tracks, floating to me holding clipboards like candles in a parody of the vigil they should be hosting.

"Professor," a young thing calls breathily.

But no one comes.

Because eternity is a sick joke God has allowed us to play on ourselves. We inventors oftime, we've never been stopped, have never conceived that if we invented the idea then our forever is equally as unreal.

And he's let us do it.

There are needles sticking out of the ghostly hand that rises and they pop at odd angles as that same hand reaches for that lovely pink throat hiding humanity behind the pale palor of that awful jacket.

But he couldn't have let us do it. Nothing, no body oculd be so cruel as to let us taste paradise eternal only to have us abandon it.

The hand closes mechanically, like a claw, a simple extension of the humming machinery fueling it, pumping the lungs belonging to it full and empty.

It is about this time that I realize that God must be dead--as finite as the rest of us, unable to war us of our foolish dreams.

There is a sickening crack as I pull my ghost close, cradle her in my arms like an infant, and the motion pains me but I do it anyway.

My lungs heave of their own voltion, rendering the machines behind me useless, and then the tears begin to fall.

My sorrow extends to these poor lost children, orphaned by their creator, now left in the care of so terrible a goddess as myself. For if knowledge is power, surely I must now rule the world.

A man in white is approaching me, smiling sickly, pleased with himself, and I can only be furious that he's released something so terrible as me upon the world. The ghosts give their Dr. Frankenstein wide berth.

"Professor," they echo frantically.

"Subject B," he greets casually, casting an amused eye on the corpse in my hands, "I see you're feeling completely yourself."

There is half an ounce of pain as I stand, as the tubes rip their way out of my esophagus, as the bonds holding me break, as the machines groan with the effort of my escape.

This awful man I know, this Professor. And he has created original sin in my new world. He has brought me to life.

I slide a hand gently along either side of his skull and twist. His vertabrae snap and pop, but I twist, and twist, and twist as only I am wont to do. Sinews stretch and veins cling, but eventually the head gives way from the body, and I am left warm in an oddly comforting spray of red.

The ghosts are trapped in horror, not as free as I. Some run, some stay, some scream, some quiet, but I've no eyes for them.

I'm watching patches of red soak into the sleeves of my blue coat, wondering at the familiar way the colors intwine to black. I am pained and amused. I am hopeful and I am ill.

I smile terribly at my realization, my acidic lips open and my teeth bare like fangs. I snarl like the dog I am with the grace of something pretty I've been taught to be. I look very much the sly fox; I am very much the agitated bear. And this creature that I am, that I have become, that I might or might not have been, but I have certainly returned as has been gifted once more, tragically, upon this poor, unsuspecting world.

"D-Director Shinohara?" someone, somewhere stutters.

It seems oddly fitting they should've buried me in my uniform.

Tags:
 
 
hikouchan
10 September 2009 @ 12:11 pm
Hikou: hates her life and misses her Turks desperately.
 
 
hikouchan
06 September 2009 @ 07:27 am

Title: Glasgow
CAT: Batman
Warnings: Self insert, language, violence
Story Link: http://lunaescence.com/fics/viewstory.php?sid=8768&chapter=26 [until fosffs operational]

Summary:
He is a man of changing worlds; I am not shocked I have no world before him.

[Self-Insert, Joker-ific, Dark-Knight-tastic]
Notes: Hikou has recently been unemployed, leaving her all kinds of fun spare time to pick up old, dusty fics and try to rethread them properly before she ties them up. Hoping to introduce a few more traditional Batman villains even if Nolan hasn't touched on them yet. Tiniest chapter in all the land because I'm trying to get back into the swing of things.


Cosmetology

Chaos is really a lot harder than it looks.

The shadow we cast stretches and falls, stretches and falls too many times to have counted. Baby's mangled equations add to my own until we're sifting through flakes of scratched paint to find our designs. Our machinations leak down the staircase, they carry themselves over the monkeybars. They unfurl as far as the make believe police car, embed themselves over the poorly painted siren, carve themselves into the fake rubber wheel, and although these letters and numbers feel silly falling from my lips, quaking from my fingertips, they grow older with each new sunrise. They mature themselves into our minds.

They've been set in stone, put in my hands directly from God's, and it would be folly not to believe in them now.

It's getting too cold outside for jungle gyms and spiral slides. Not cold enough to ward the children off, but what we lose in stature we make up for in smiles. We are left well enough alone. It doesn't make the metal burn any less when the wind blows, and it doesn't make our bodies shake any less. Even together we are incomplete. Pieces are missing. When we awake with chicken scratch and awful plots embedded to our cheeks it is always with a sense of sorrow, a misplaced hope that turns in on itself when we remember where we are.

It's a terrible thing to see a person grin and frown all at once.

Baby paints my face on the last morning. I watch my reflection nervously in what's left of the lacquered sheen of red. I've seen her make-up jobs before. I pretend they're what has landed us in this predicament. I don't tell her it's my own fault.

"Remember to get a flashlight," she instructs me, "because it'll be too dark to read the map otherwise, and if you don't find the exact place I've rigged the cameras and the explosives it'll all be ruined." She pushes the pencil too roughly against my skin, and a trickle of red leaks from the circle she's been drawing on my cheek and disappears between stitches, into the corner of my smile too far from my lips.

"It'll be fine," I tell her nonchalantly, tonguing the stitches. "I've got the easy part."

She scoffs, but is too preoccupied to actually look me in the eye. She's rummaging through a small black bag I'm not sure when she's acquired, but there's a nostalgic scent wafting off of it, and my heart clenches at it. She slides a small piece of metal into my hand. I don't have to look down to know what it is. My fingers trace the engraving on the bottom, sharp angles feeling like they should be able to cut, but the emotion that slices through me is something different from fear. It's a subdued sort of hate, more aggravation than anything else, swaddled tightly in a thick blanket of amusement.

Whatever it is, it's shaped like a bat.

"Press the button once to activate it, twice to ignite it." She pauses at the staircase with one hand gripping the outside of the roof, and gives me a small smile. We are unkempt and deranged, and our sad, waifish appearance is at least twice as terrifying as our disillusioned giggles and bad jokes were.

I smile back because I'm a dutiful reflection if nothing else.

"Good luck," Baby wishes.

"Good luck," I mirror listlessly.

 
 
hikouchan
28 August 2009 @ 06:32 pm

FF: Disidia ->

NOMURA JUST STOP IT.

D<

I'm really sick of Cloud just being raped nonstop. What the fuck are these catch phrases? My reality is my own? Well, YEAH, DIPSHIT. That's why it's YOUR reality. Way to advertise you still have Jenova issues. Jesus fucking Christ.

Pick a side, Nomura. Pick a fucking side. He can't be fine and ready to rebuild one minute and crying the next. COMMIT.

And that goddamn voice actor. Could you be any less emotionless? I KNOW YOUR GAME, JASON. And if DAY TIME TV was too good for you what makes you think you can ACT without a FACE? 

D<

Fuck it.

I'm gonna go play BATMAN.
 
 
hikouchan
23 August 2009 @ 05:47 pm
Has anyone read Ouke no Monshou?
 
 
hikouchan
17 August 2009 @ 02:05 pm
CONVERSION
SELF-INSERT
DO IT


It's been three days. Nobody says much at first because nobody really notices. Turks are more cat than dog, they come and go as they please, leave a body on your doorstep if they're feeling affectionate. Rufus doesn't look closely enough to see a suit less. Tseng is too professional to pry appropriately. Reno's too crazy. Rude's too busy. Mikari's been maintaining Mideel for the better part of two weeks, and Snow's been knee deep in paperwork since last Friday.

It is Elena that starts the landslide, inadvertently, unintentionally. She's looking for a spare stapler as she rifles through an untouched desk, the words, "Agent Shinohara, inscriped and shining in gold letters. It's too clean and tidy. It's untouched, and,

"Where the hell did she hide her stapler?" The rustling comes to an aprubt halt as the blonde rights herself. She spins with an accusing hand on her hip. "Has anyone seen HIkou?"

Turk looks to Turk with a shrug. They haven't thought much on it, after all, Hikou is more cat than dog. She doesn't come when called, but it's odd she hasn't left a dead mouse in the lobby lately.

"I think I saw her last Tuesday?" Mikari offers, "She kept sending me spam mail from across the office." Her fingers are still moving ridiculously quickly across her keyboard, writing and speaking simultaneously as if she's reserved a separate brain for each. "Not that I mind IMing in the office. I just don't need another networking site."

Everybody remembers the emails. Nobody says anything.

"The WRO-rats have been getting a little too cocky lately," Snow comments offhandledly. Her hand clenches and unclenches woefully as she stares at the stack of paper before her.

Rude nods his assent. Hikou is known widely for keeping the little chicken-suited soldiers adequately terrified and regularly harrassed. "Mission?" he suggests.

Snow shakes her head, motioning to the stack on her desk. It's steadily growing taller than she is. "Mikari and Reno are the only ones who've been assigned all week."

There's only a small pause while the wheels in everyone's head turn. There's a list a mile long of any number of places Hikou could be, any number of people she could be with, any way she could be maimed and murdered and generally in trouble.

A line of blue suits files out of the room like a routine fire drill. Fifteen versions of the same clue sit in everyone's inbox.

Hi
S.Rayjah@ShinraInc.net,

I set up a Facebook profile where I can post my pictures, videos and events and I want to add you as a friend so you can see it. First, you need to join Facebook! Once you join, you can also create your own profile.

Thanks,
Hikou

To sign up for Facebook, follow the link below:
http://www.facebook.com/p.php?i=512299261&k=Z5GZ53PSS2W1UCD1QB64TSV2QVJE&r
 
 
hikouchan
17 August 2009 @ 01:53 pm
WHY DO NONE OF YOU HAVE FACEBOOK?!
 
 
hikouchan
17 August 2009 @ 06:50 am
Final Fantasy Dissidia?
 
 
hikouchan
16 August 2009 @ 08:36 pm
Title: Pinnacle
Link: FOSFF, LUNA (didn't post at PBF 'cause it was being glitchy and weird)
Rating: R
Labels: Romance, Continuation, Drama, Fantasy
Warnings: Violence, Gore, Language, Crude Humor, Adult Situations
Summary: The world is safe, the tyrant gone, but the Spire still looms ominously on the horizon. The lonely adventurer can only gaze upon it so long before she takes flight. They are Heroes, the pinnacle of existence, and the pinnacle of creation lies undiscovered within the tower that has pierced the heart of the heavens. [Continuation, ReaverxSparrow, Evil!Theresa]
Notes:
Everyone thank/blame Whoaless for reminding me this existed. I didn't expect to take it in this direction, but this is what came out, so, hmyes.

I'd love to respond to everybody's reviews, but there are a lot more than I'm used to, and it's been so long since I've updated I'm not sure I'd know what I was talking about, so I'll try to hit everyone up next time.

Mirror, Mirror

I'm tired of it, but the feeling just won't go away.

It's wrapped thickly around my waist as I creep down the wooden stairs, silently commanding them not to croak their alarm. It's squeezing so hard my guts are threatening to spill into my mouth when I realize the order is as futile as every other one I give. It's fitting that I should be as queenly in Reaver's home as I am in every other province of the would-be kingdom, and though, I usually can reclaim my mocked and ridiculed crown with a quick flip of my blade, I am reduced to something less in the presence of competition.

I am left feeling too young and awkward, sneaking about my own house. I'm a child snooping about on Christmas morning, and I expect to be scolded accordingly as I turn every winding corner.

I suppose most people feel like children when stacked against Reaver, though. I try to console myself as the feeling wraps higher still, gripping an evil hand around my windpipe. I can't be sure I remember how to feel child-like anyhow. I have a sneaking suspicion I'd never the chance to do it right to begin with.

The pressure in my chest releases too swiftly as I round the last corner, and all my insides sink instantly, out of sorts and far from their proper locations. Bright blue eyes are staring up at me ridiculously from a small, forlorn desk, in a nameless room long forgotten behind the winding path that leads to it. I'm so startled at being caught I nearly drop the candle I'm holding. I'm so filled with juvenile fear I forget to be angry.

I wonder how long he's been looking for them.

"Snooping around again I see, Little Sparrow." 

I've got a good memory.

The patriarchal tone rubs me the wrong way entirely, and my non-existent grip on the candle is suddenly bone-crushing, my worried expression suddenly tight and cold. There's papers splayed out before him, and I know what I've left in this tiny piece of storage space. I wonder if he's more upset that I've read it or that I've swept it away so that no one else might.

"Well, if you didn't leave personal pieces of angst lying about people wouldn't read them, Reaver," I reply, semi-thoughtfully, forcing my tone to be light. I'm trying to retain my grip on the situation, but it's too hard. There's a biting edge to the next words, "Any twelve year old girl could tell you your supposed to hide your diary." 

He smiles, and if I were anyone else I'd think maybe I'd amused him, but I'm close enough to see wheels turning behind blue eyes. He's thinking of exacting petty revenge in much the same fashion I am, running me through for the simplicity of hearing my scream.

"This is one of those situation in which I have to kill you if I tell you," he confirms quietly, but we both understand it's more complicated than this.

"Because anyone needs some musty old book to tell how much of a bastard you are." 

His eyes widen marginally, and I think he might be hurt on some plane of humanity he forgot he possessed. I think he's buried a small piece of soul in those stupid pieces of paper, and now that it's been exposed it's vulnerable and sad.

I can't quite bring myself to care.

"Am I supposed to feel sorry you murdered a village three hundred years ago? Does it grate you, Reaver? Because it should." The words feel better than they should. I'm left with the feeling I'm screaming into a mirror, though, and it is sickly satisfying and infinitely painful.

His expression doesn't change much, but he's adopted my bitter tone as his lips part. I don't miss the threat when he stands. "I suppose you would know about selling innocents for happiness. How has it worked out for you?"

We are very still for a long time, and it is very quiet. The vacuum is so sudden and so strong I nearly expect the flame of the candle to go out, but it doesn't, and I can only count the passing moments in its flickers.

It's the room, I convince myself. Self-involved as we are we can love our reflections in public, but in private there's a pound of self-loathing we exact in the other. Much like the mirror. I want to raise a fist, but it's thoughtless and silly. I need the glass in tact for now.

I am disused to calling truce. "I'm leaving for the Northern mountains in the morning. The Reaver will be leaving port at first light. If you've decided to join my crusade, you'll be on it." 

I turn on my heel and leave, back through the winding path to my room. The road stretches longer without the apprehension to keep me company.

"You rebuilt The Reaver?" he wonders aloud, adopts the change too quickly for normality, but I'm no longer there to answer.

He wants to forget it as badly as I do.
 
 
hikouchan
12 August 2009 @ 08:18 pm

Title: Tempest
Link: http://www.lunaescence.com/fics/viewstory.php?sid=13191&warning=17+
CAT: GI Joe
Summary: I climb into the metal vulture because the world is covered in blood, and he is not. [Movie-verse, Post-film, Storm Shadow/Snake Eyes-centric, Self-insert-tastic.]
Notes: I like ninjas with guns.


The sky is red.

The ground is too, the color seeping deep into the Earth, pooling when the dirt can hold no more. It seeps into the water nearby, unfurling with the ghostly grace of the dead, spreading with the rapid contamination of a plague. It's slow and methodical, peacefully powerful, even the terror it inspires thuds in deep and resonating thrums throughout my body. It smothers my screams, seals my windpipe, until all I can hear is the thrum of fear echoing empty in my ears. The world outside mute to the steady, sourceless creeping.

I am red. My clothes are already too damp in sweat and tears; I notice too late. It's hot, and it's sticky, and it burrows deeper into every pore with every useless swipe I make at it. It's streaking from my ears. It's dripping from my nose.

My mind is reeling, spinning forward so fast it sets itself backwards. Cogs are falling off of axles, but the images keep streaming inwards, unprocessed, overwhelming. People line the desert skyline, cityless, purposeless. They scream mutely. They fall to their feet. They clutch their ears. Their faces are contorted in pain, in confusion. They soften slightly in death.

Above vultures are fighting over the carrion. Their attacks launch hot white, their strikes fade to flames of orange. They clap like thunder, and even if the force of the sound is still muffled in the color, I can feel the tremors of each explosion reverberate against my ribcage. Faces behind me are losing their definition, relaxing into decay in an ironic brand of peace, but my eyes fix themselves upwards. Clouds outline severely against this man-made storm. The size of them terrifies me, but their line holds strong against the barrage of fire. They guard fiercely, outlined in red.

It's a long time before I give in to it. Before I sink into the ground, desolate. I'm the last one upright, even on my knees. I'm the only one to see the sun peak over the horizon, open a lazy eye to the debacle of humanity. It's a long time before the vultures clear away and the angels descend from Heaven to reclaim our dead.

But they don't want the dead.

He walks to me. A beacon of purity and simplicity, draped in white against the diseased scene. He ought to extend a hand, grant me wings and fly me behind the clouds, but he doesn't. A firm hand grabs me by the back of my collar like a pup by the scruff of the neck and yanks me to my feet. He studies me disdainfully for a minute before tossing me forward with a stiff order of , "Go."

There's a foreboding looking piece of metal in the distance, trying to whip wet pieces of sand away, succeeding to some extent. It casts a long shadow, all the way to my feet in the presence of the sun. I look back for reassurance.

I receive none. "Go," he says again.

My foot moves of its own volition. Not because of the fear or the death, not for the mask of confusion, not for the ascent. I climb into the metal vulture because the world is covered in blood, and he is not.

There's a woman waiting to greet me, but a needle takes the place of words, plunged deep within my neck before I'm sure which way is up. "Let's go, Storm Shadow!" she shouts over the heavy beat of propellers.

The world flashes white.


 

 
 
hikouchan
12 August 2009 @ 12:03 pm


I love Daniel Way.

I've been having the shittiest week, and I'm halfway on the verge of just saying fuck it, but then the new Deadpool came out today, and it was the good one that Way writes not this throwback Merc with a Mouth bullshit that everyone treats like the word of fucking God.

):

Anyway. Pirates. <3

 
 
 
 

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